When on the brink of a new beginning, there is more excitement than challenge. Every day is a new beginning, a fresh slate. Some wait until January 1 to wipe away any bad habits or to implement change. But the good news is … every 24 hours you are presented with a new slate. A slate to wake up and workout. A slate to start wearing mascara and earrings. A slate to begin being nicer to people … every day when your eyes open for the first time is a new beginning.
|A beginning ... sunrise over Lake Las Vegas|
You know those beginnings will happen every day. But there are some beginnings that show up in our lives and they aren’t planned or invited. A break up, a separation, a loss, a birth, a purchase … they all signal a new beginning and sometimes the hardest part about that beginning is that something ended. You know the line from the song “Closing Time” by Semisonic … “Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.” While the lyrics portray a bar scene … the song was actually written as a band member was preparing to become a father. His DINK status comes to an end and his role as a parent begins.
Over time, I’ve become less and less afraid of new beginnings and more and excited about what they represent. Every day you have a chance to wake up and decide how you want to be that day … or what you want to accomplish. You get to say goodbye to the day previous and all of the stressors, disappointments, heartaches and such that were associated with that day. Or … if that day was the most amazing day of your life you get to say goodbye to the amazing memories that were created and say hello to a new opportunity to recreate such amazement.
|An ending ... sunset in Tampa, Florida|
Sometimes it is hard to let go of a particular belief or feeling of comfort … sometimes new beginnings are uncomfortable. I don’t know too many people who exit a long-term relationship without some sort of emotional tug … But a new beginning is just that: A time to recreate your own destiny, your own design … Today is a new beginning for me … I woke up and found out that my grandfather had passed away early this morning. May he rest in peace.
My Grandpop was 97 years young … he had a sense of humor that would rival Letterman on any day, even up until his last days. While the loss of him is leaving us with a heavy heart, it would be selfish of my to not be relieved for his new beginning. He is at peace and reunited with my grandmother; the love of his life that he lost several years prior. After her passed, I was certain he would follow soon after. They were both stubborn … they must’ve had a fight or something and my grandmother’s way of putting him on probation was to let him live a few years on earth without her. I say that with humor because they were both so stubborn, but so in love. They were blissfully married for over 60 years and I can only hope that my best day of marriage is half as good as their worst. Does that make sense?
|My sister, Grandpop, my niece, me in June 2009|
Every ending and every beginning are a part of who you are today. If I hadn’t begun today with the news of my grandfather’s passing … I am not sure I would have stopped to smell the roses today or stopped to reflect on what an amazing life he lived and how blessed I am to have had such wonderful grandparents to show me how to love to passionately and permanently. I could go on and on with stories of those two love birds … but I will save them for another day.
Embrace moments, embrace endings and embrace beginnings.